Monday, March 7, 2011

Maurice

Outside the sun is shining. The snowdrops are fading and primroses hold a promise of summer sun in their pale yellow flowers. The days get longer. The birdsong is louder and all around the rooks and the jackdaws begin to gather sticks and moss to make unruly nests.
There are lambs in the field by the house, bright and full of their own springs and playful running.
But my heart is raw and open for today the best of all cats had died. Words fail me. 
Yesterday he jumped up into my arms where I held him warm and close.
Today I have buried him in the soft, dark earth.
There was something so very special about Maurice and only those who have had the great privilege to be so close with an animal will know that. Never broken, beyond the frail thing called love, perhaps just a mutual respect.
His death leaves me breathless.

91 comments:

Narrative jewelry said...

Oh dear Jackie, we all know that this moment will arrive, but when i saw your title, i just knom it is time.

Even if i never saw him in real life, his incredible look touched my heart.

I do not find words, but i really understand what you mean by being so close with an animal. I had the privilege to live that with my little Igor, who died 5 years ago.

All my thoughts are for the lovely Maurice, he will be a new little star in my sky tonight.

All my thoughts to you Jackie. Thanks for sharing the beautiful adventures of the ginger family.

Veronique

Lydia said...

My heart aches for you, Jackie. The love you and Maurice shared, and still share I do believe, have warmed so many lives. It was a love both grand and quiet and public and private. And everlasting as memory.

B'ham said...

Please know that tears are flowing for you and your family. Your Boy was beautiful.
xoxo

Anonymous said...

Oh dear Jackie, I'm so, so sorry - my heart sank when I opened "We Three, Ginger cats tales" and saw Maurice's photograph - I'm just so sorry - Maurice was a truly beautiful character. I understand where you are - I lost Sophie, my wonderful hare, to cancer nearly two years ago - she was truly beautiful and my inspiration. I must go now and hug my cats. Krystyna (Dorset Hare)

Becky said...

I have walked this same path several times with some wonderful felines. I know that no words can ease the pain; only time does that. He certainly was a handsome and intriguing cat.

birdmonkey said...

How terribly sad. I lost my ginger fella Mambo less than a year ago to a cancer that ate him up and I still miss him.

My best wishes to you.

Dear Maurice thank you for blessing our lives especially Jackie's.

A Brit in Tennessee said...

I have shed tears for your loss.
Such a beautiful boy Maurice, his gingerness allured me.
My thoughts and prayers are with you, I share your sadness.
Run through the fields of mice and dragons Maurice, my own kitties will show you the way.....
Hugs,
~Jo

Rural Rambler said...

I am so sorry. I have been reading here for a short time but have fallen in love with your cats and your writing. All kitties are special but I had one that was the bestest kitty too. She left too soon. Respect. That is what makes it so right. Maurice had the love and respect that all kitties deserve and he had someone that loved and respected him and held him close at the end. I wish all kitties could live their lives this way and that when the end comes there is someone to hold them "warm and close". You and Maurice will be on my mind today, my heart breaks for you. I understand the breathlessness you speak about.

dragonladych said...

I'm so very sorry to read this Jackie!

I feel privileged that I got to meet Maurice and he did me the honour of walking with me.

Karen L R said...

Oh, this is sad, sad news. No words, just hugs sent across the ocean.
xoxo

Georgia said...

So sad.

Simba said...

My deepest condolences to you and your family, both human and animal. Though I do not comment often, I have loved reading about all your beautiful cats. Fly free, sweet Maurice.

Simba and his Mom

Bovey Belle said...

I am so sorry to read this. Tears are pricking my eyes here, for a beautiful cat that I never met but felt as if I had. He has touched so many lives and will leave such a void in yours . . . .

Daisy said...

I am so sorry Maurice had to go to the Rainbow Bridge. Soft purrs to you during this sad time.

Jane said...

Beautiful Maurice. One of the great cats that we are privileged to know. He will be full of youth and joy, bounding up the hill in front of you when you walk, taking great breaths of the spring air. But the pain is terrible and my cats and I share it.
Jane

Alistair said...

Poor Maurice, he was a cat of many tales.

Poor you, for you loved him so.

Deleilan said...

My deepest condolences for your loss, Jackie... Maurice will be missed.

Shammickite said...

My thoughts are with you, Jackie, and I'm wiping away the tears. I'm crying for you, for Maurice, for Pixie and Martha and Elmo, and Rosie, and for all the people who have had to bury a beloved pat. I've lost a few too, over the years. Peace and love to you all.

Anonymous said...

It was time for Maurice to go but every time you walk along the path, on your own or with others he will be there with you, his soul is ever entwined with yours. Look beside you - he will be there.

Jenni xx

Glenna said...

I'm so sorry. Such a beautiful kitty. I know you will miss him dreadfully.

Anne Boleyn said...

I am so grateful to have met this exquisite Maurice. I weep for your loss. You were such blessings to each other.

Donatella con Tristezza said...

Much love to you, the Pack and the Pride at this time. It's so hard to lose a beloved cat like Maurice.

Ann-Marie said...

I'm so grieved to read about Maurice. We love them so much we can't imagine life without them, and suddenly they're gone.

Thank you for sharing him with us, a little. We all send our love and grace.

Diarmuid, Fiona, and Five
(and Ann-Marie)

Shelley said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I have no words to express it, just an aching heart for you, and tears flowing freely. Rest in the precious memories of your beautiful, sweet ginger boy.

Morning's Minion said...

I have dreaded the morning that I would open my blog dashboard and know that Maurice is gone. I've wondered over the years what makes some cats of the many known and loved to be so special; the bond with such rare creatures is something that draws us a little way into the mysteries of animal intelligence and response--which is awe-inspiring--and such a painful loss when they leave us too soon.
Your unique way of sharing your world and your pets with us means that we grieve each passing with you.

Anonymous said...

I join everyone else with condolences and thoughts for you and your family. I am also so very relieved that you able to be with him. Kate

Dougie Donk said...

Words fail me at times like this, but my thoughts are with you.

Run free, Maurice. You were loved.

Shefyt said...

Oh...oh, I am so, so sorry. My heart goes out to you in your loss. May Bast send you comfort as She welcomes him into the West.

The Ginger Darlings said...

Thank you. Feeling lost without my other half. He was too young. Ad Bastet has a good soul there to keep her company. I must get a statue of her to place in the garden where there are now more cats burried than there are in the house.

Robin Larkspur said...

My heart cries with you, Jackie, and with the other members of your family. You have lost too many sweet cats lately. I have loved many cats and dogs, and their passing is always terrible. Maurice, dear little love.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry :-( RIP dear Maurice

Rachel said...

So sorry to hear about Maurice. My thoughts are with you today.

Ambermoggie, a fragrant soul said...

oh Jackie I am so so sorry, Maurice was a very big part of your life and I know you will miss him so much. He was blessed also in that he found you and your family to live with. Love is a two way thing and I know he must have given you all as much as you gave him. My thoughts are with you

Vienne said...

I have been privileged only twice to live with gingers; in both cases, I adopted cats whom I knew were ill, and would die of their illness. Not even that will prepare one for the moment.
And one of them, my wonderful fierce Terry who slept next to me on my pillow, was the cat an owner waits all life long for.
There's something very, very special about gingers.
I am so sorry for your loss.

Threads and thoughts said...

So much sorrow and no words to comfort. I know the feeling, time will ease the pain.

Stacy Hurt said...

Oh Dear Jacki, I'm so very sorry for your loss; you are right, words simply fail.

love and hugs to you

Stacy

sasha and max said...

So sorry to read about Maurice - I have tears in my eyes as I type - losing a feline friend is a very hard thing... memories are our treasures to get us through xx

WOL said...

Oh, no! The minute I saw the title of your post, my heart fell. I think a book dedication is in order. You know the one I mean. Au revoir, old man. Au revoir.

CHo Meir said...

So very sorry for your loss, and ours too. We all will miss him, the perfect gentleman of Gingerness...

Serena said...

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about that. My sympathies to you, and to your surviving darlings.

phoebesmum said...

I am so, so sorry. All cats are special, but some are even more special than that, and such a one was Maurice. A fine and a handsome cat, who will be much missed.

Marlene said...

Our hearts all go out to you during this time.

Rest in Peace, dear Maurice.

JC said...

I am so sorry. He had a fabulous life with you. Take time to mourn and then remember all the great times you had with him.

SisterOfTheDivide said...

Honey Bee and Sophie send you cat energy and warmth, we are so sorry to hear of the loss of Maurice. What a beautiful companionship the two of you had. I lost my Noni kitty and Nina about 6 years ago. Had Noni for 24 years and Nina for 17, they were family and passed within a year of each other. I feel your heartbreak, it's never easy. A void is definitely felt and the pain can be overwhelming at times. We are sending you light and love along with others to help you through this time of grief. Maurice was and is a a beautiful creature, he has just shifted his energy and one day you will be reunited. Blessings and Love.

Anonymous said...

Yes, a piece of you is in the ground with your Kitty. Yes, the beautiful title image immediately said it all. No words for it- I have tears for you, too. It reminds me of the loss of my Gray Lady 10 years ago and still fresh. Your ginger team has been my cat family- not supposed to have cats, I am. So I will miss him also. I will look for his star too...

Wendy said...

I'm so sorry. A year ago we lost ginger Kipper, it broke my heart (I actually felt it go) and I cry for him still - some animals are just tangled up in your heart and we that have known them understand your grief. He has nothing more to worry about now, and wouldn't want you to worry about him, I'm sure, but god how it hurts.

Lori said...

Oh Maurice.....the heartbreak of that beautiful face, words do fail at a time like this, the sorrow too heavy. We understand and know your loss, all of us readers will miss him greatly though many of us never got to know him, we knew the greatness of his noble and gentle spirit. Lori

Anonymous said...

I am so very sad and sorry to hear your news, Jackie. Sending my love and a big hug xx

Emerald Window said...

After reading this post, I held my own ginger cat, Buidhe, tight and told him the story of Maurice. We send healing love to you.
Cenya and 9 cats,

luanne said...

Beautiful, beautiful Maurice! My heart aches deeply for you and your clan.

Thank you for sharing him with us.

Pumpkin said...

Oh...no, no no. Lovely Maurice. I am so sorry you lost your beautiful Ginger baby. I loved seeing his red fur glowing on your walks. My thoughts and prayers are with you and know that you are not alone in your grief as the tears are freely falling down my face too.
Run free beautiful Maurice

John said...

Dear Jackie, I know how close Maurice and you were to each other, and I could tell that Maurice was a truly special creature. I am so sorry to read of his passing. I will remember his wise old man face, and his walks along the cat paths through the grasses, which you shared with us. When I lost my ginger guy last summer, the thought of your cat and their freedom in the outdoors comforted me. I wish peace for your heart and your family. John

Swan Artworks said...

So sorry to hear about Maurice Jackie, he must have been a happy cat to have such a kind and loving home with you and all the pride...

Laura J. Wellner (author pseudonym Laura J. W. Ryan) said...

Oh dear Jackie,

We so sorry for your loss, Maurice was such a sweet boy, and we know you will miss him, and now your memories are more than precious. Our thoughts are with you during your time of loss. We thank you for sharing your art, stories, and photos with us. Hugs and kisses to you and your family members, both human and furry.

Fatty Woo, Willy Big, Tiggy-Pooh, Charlie Chowder, Walter Butters, Max the Dog, and me, Laura.

Betweens said...

What humans are lucky about is the memories that we get to keep and you have many they will keep your love of Maurice close to your heart.
Animal loss is so much worse than human loss

Wendy said...

Dear beautiful boy, you and your family are in my prayers tonight. May your heart soar but never stray far from those who loved you.

Angie said...

I am so sorry to read of your most recent loss. I feel for you and understand that,with some cats there is a deeper connection and the resulting loss is harder. My son lost his ginger, Tigg, at the beginning of the year ...a friend and companion for 15years ... he still finds it hard to talk of her. I know you have wonderful memories and the prose and photos to keep him alive in your heart.xx

basicnorth said...

Jackie, there are no words. Just be brave and muddle through. They take so much when they leave, it cannot be that we will never see them again - that would be too cruel.

Ricka

Gail said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Karen said...

so very very sad. His soul will always stay close to you.

gretchen said...

Sending love, prayers and hugs for the loss of your beautiful boy...

Ducky said...

I am so sorry to think of you without your dear friend. I pray for your heart to heal and find peace in loving him from this new distance. So very sorry for your loss.

Mary A said...

Jackie, Maurice was a noble spirit and I thank you for sharing him and the rest of your clan with us. He's waiting for you just beyond the veil. Sleep well little one...Mary

Ikaika said...

Jackie, we are so very sorry to hear about your beautiful Maurice. I think we all know how very wonderful it is to love the special ones and how very hard it is when they leave us. The kitties and I send gentle purrs and comfort across the distance to you and your other fur children. We will light a candle to remember him and light his new path ...

'Kaika's mom

Penny said...

Through you I got to know Maurice, now he has gone, it makes me so sad, but having just lost a beloved dog,we know it will happen but hope not just yet, we tend to outlive them all but their memories live on.

Anonymous said...

I am weeping for your loss, and for our loss, those of us who have followed the story of the Ginger Darlings. So many others have posted such lovely and loving thoughts; I cannot say anything more eloquently than your faithful readers and friends. Please know -- from a reader on the other side of the world from you -- that you and your family are in my thoughts. I am sending up a prayer for you, and for the beloved Maurice.

Fiona D. said...

How can so few words, so beautiful, leave me with tears flowing free?
All love to you and yours from me and mine (including my much-loved cheetahs). Fiona

The Island Cats said...

We are so very sorry to hear about Maurice. We send you comforting purrs and headbutts to help during this sad time...

Sheelagh said...

This is the news we were dreading.

So sorry that this bright flame of fur and spirit is no more.

Jackie so many people feel for you and send you and your family loving thoughts.

yogapaws said...

My heart breaks for you. There are no words- just feelings.

Maurice was a handsome boy & lived a wonderful cat life walking in the grass with his loving companions.

What more can any of us ask for?

Griffin said...

Oh Jackie, I am so sorry to hear this. What a huge loss of such a cat; a very fine cat indeed.

I hope all the memories of him are held deep in the heart of you, for in them at least he still lives on.

My commiserations.

Ann said...

Jackie-thank you for sharing your beloved companion Maurice with us-you and your animals have touched us deeply and we share in your grief-as I sit here writing and weeping my tiger cat Casper is cradled in my arms meowing and licking my cheek-he knows I am sad and is trying to comfort me. This is a special love and I hurt for you and your family's loss of a very dear friend. Angie

Moonroot said...

So sorry to hear of the loss of Maurice. I may never have met him, yet through your beautiful words and photos I came to know him - a little - and I am mourning him too, shedding tears as I write. My deepest condolences to you.

Su said...

So sad, even though he was only a virtual friend I'll still miss him. My heart goes out to you at this time. x

Anonymous said...

I'm so incredibly sorry about your beautiful Morris, Jackie. His specialness shone from his amazing eyes and made it easy to see why you loved him so.

I know that his ginger beauty will lights up the hills as he walks with Kiffer and Martha. Thank you for sharing his life with us. xx

Daffycat said...

*cries* Goodbye Maurice. You will be missed.

I'm so sorry, Jackie. What a sad day.

Ceciia said...

My condolences. Always a hard loss. Cecilia

Sharon McSwiney said...

So sorry to hear the news....
I hope Maurice will get along with Grumble who we lost just over a year ago. Although we now have 3 more kitties she is still missed.
Maurice was a beauty x

Lyn said...

Oh Jackie I have neglected reading blogs recently and have only just heard about Maurice. I know you once told me he was very close to you, almost like a husband. I do not have any words to help you through the pain but wanted you to know how sorry I was to hear he is no longer walking with you.
Thoughts are with you.
love
Lyn
xxx

Eric and Flynn said...

We are sorry to hear of your sad loss and send you our comforting purrs.

quiltcat said...

Dear Jackie, i've been away from reading blogs and just learned the news of Maurice's passing. I am so sorry. He was a magnificent cat, the epitome of gingerness, and i thank you for sharing his special essence with us. You must miss him terribly. We hope you will be comforted in some way by wonderful memories of him and the outpouring of love and compassion from your readers.
Paula and the quiltcats Sylvie, Louie, Fuzzy, and Gingy

Goldie, Shade and Banshee said...

I am so sorry to hear about sweet Maurice, Jackie. He was a true friend to you and I sympathize as I had a cat like that in my teens and I still miss him terribly. Hold his memory dear. He runs with the wild ones now.

Purrs of comfort and {hugs} from across the pond.

Kitikata-san said...

Oh my. Dear human I am so sorry your Maurice has left you. Much sympathy to you.

sparrow said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. I remember that photo of the boys with their tails entwined! Precious. Our time with our companion animals is very short, but I think they know that the love we have for them is intense, and equates to a lifetime. May you have comfort in the Maurice shaped hole

The Lee County Clowder said...

Oh, we just found out. Sending comforting purrrrrrrss and gentle headbuttttss to you all.

Annie said...

I am late and I hardly ever comment, but Maurice was a wonderful, special cat and anyone could see that. I have a special boy who is sick and I can not even imagine him gone. I send you many hugs and love. xoxo

Kat Wolfdancer said...

Having been Gifted with that rare gift of unconditional love that a furry companion gives, I grieve with you.. My Puck will be glad to show Maurice around to all the very best fishing spots and tall warm grass spots and mouse-pouncing spots beyond the Rainbow Bridge where we shall all be reunited.. My deep *hopelessly wordless* condolences...

>^,,^<

Rose Lefebvre said...

I recently had to put to rest my dear companion of 18 years. She was a lovely calico named Patches and I miss her so. You can view her loveliness on my March 12th post on my blog.
http://poetrose24.blogspot.com/
I understand your loss.

Natalie said...

I have just discovered your wonderful blog, and have not yet fully 'met' Maurice, but this wonderful, gutwrenching, beautiful, heartbreaking post has me in tears for you.

I am glad that what was clearly a magnificent cat clearly had such a magnificent person.

Shelleen said...

I am behind in reading blogs and just read this post. I am so sorry for your loss.

Holly Knott said...

Sending hugs your way - I am so sorry. I do so enjoy your blog.